Relationships

So once again, I seemed to have messed up again. I once again found someone who I liked alot and then once again, I get the oh its not you its me line. Well in essence. Details will be sparring but lets just say once again I got the "oh your an amazing guy who makes me feel wanted but I feel like I am not putting a good effort in."

Why do women not get that if I had an issue with it, believe me we would talk. But alas no one ever listens. So I am told I am a amazing guy and blah blah blah. Yet if that was the case, why am I being left? What did I do wrong? I am not necessarily looking for a marriage and all that right now but how bad is it to want to roll over in the morning and being able to text someone good morning and ask how they are doing? I mean, do I have to be a dick to get what I want?

I am not the type of guy who goes out and looks to get laid at the bars and such. I mean its not my style. Yet I see friends of mine who are happy with that. Why am I not happy with doing that? Am I too mature for that? Or did I get brought up differently? I mean I think my upbringing does have something to do with it but honestly, I see no need to fuck every lady that comes my way.

All I want in life is someone who I can call and talk to and who I can ask how they are and they get a smile from hearing from me. Is that too hard to find? Am I impatient? Possibly. Do I want everything right away? Yeah on most things. But at the end of the day, I want a girl I can talk to and cuddle with and actually feel wanted. It was nice for this past month feeling wanted.

Now.......................... Who knows.